We sat crowded around the kitchen table less than a stone’s throw from the main farm house, two young frustrated farm couples and me, the farm coach. My eyes met the eyes of a daughter-in-law (DIL) whose ready tears were about to roll as I explained that sometimes in the culture of agriculture there are unrealistic expectations pitched on the folks who are trying their hardest to please.
I simply asked them to finish this sentence for me:
“The work on this farm is never done. No matter how many hours you put in or how hard you try, it is never __________”. “Enough” they all chimed in unison.
This is the shame game that is toxic on family farms that needs to stop now. You cannot function well in a workplace where you are always feeling like a failure. As someone said, “Failure is an event, not a person.”
It’s time to do some serious soul-searching and ask yourself if you acting like an unrelenting judge of those on your farm team who are trying their best to work hard and yet raise an emotionally healthy young family.
Find Brene Brown!
I encourage you to hit the TED.com site with your spouse and watch Brene Brown’s transparent account of listening to shame. Go online and buy both of her books: The Gift of Imperfection and Daring Greatly. You’re going to need a manual to refer to as you change your thinking. The perfectionists who are never pleased are going to wish courageous conversations confronting their nasty, addictive habits would stop.
The thing that is going to stop is shaming.
In Daring Greatly, Brown uses a quote from Theodore (Teddy) Roosevelt’s speech in l910to launch the key ideas of how we can dare to be different, letting go of guilt and shame.
Brown’s definition of guilt is “I did something bad”. Her definition of shame simply is “I am bad”. No, you are not. You are a gifted, capable person who just happens to be stuck in a toxic farm. Brown sees shame as a sense of being defective.
“Our worst fear is being criticized or ridiculed, either one of these is extremely shaming,” Brown says.
What are you going to do about it?
I received an email at Christmas from a young farmer who decided to move out, get a place of his own, buy some equipment gradually, and make his own way. I was pleased for him to see action steps that were helping him to move away from being shamed. Nothing he ever did to help his folks was ever appreciated, or good enough.
Another young farmers voice cracks as he explains he can longer stand the “financial guilt” that he feels. What he is asking for is gifts without strings attached, and freedom to make his own financial decisions on the farm without being scolded with “I told you this was a stupid thing to do !”
We don’t need to dredge up lots of nasty examples to make my case. We all need to offer concrete steps to slip off the jackets of guilt and not accept being shamed.
I am wired for positivity and empathy. I am curious if this could be the year that you spend some time in counseling, read Brown’s works, seek out God’s wisdom in the Bible, talk to clergy, and journal to reflect on what is working for you in your life, and what is not.
As the oldest child, I am aware of my birth order tendencies to be responsible and run to take care of others. But as my Westjet attendant reminds me, we need to put our own oxygen masks on first, and then look after those beside us.
Is the tension on your farm so great that you are losing your breath? Breathe. Seek out professional help. Know that every morning you wake up with a choice as to how we are going to be in order to step away from the shame game.
We are human. We make mistakes in how we act and speak. We are also forgiven. Jesus Christ gives me my model of forgiveness. I can apologize for bad behavior, be forgiven by the person I have hurt, and then let go. I can also work to make things right, with the intention of not causing hurt again.
What is your intention? Do you want to stay trapped and stuck in the muck of your farm scenario, or are you ready to reach out for help and a new way to feel? The economic forecasts may be causing you stress, and I don’t take financial pain lightly, yet each day we eat well and sleep in a safe warm bed. We can count our blessings, and decide to pull out the thorns in our lives. Brown suggest that gratitude is helpful in daring greatly to make things different.
Chuck Swindoll, a wise preacher, suggested that you should cut negative people out of your lives unless you are married to one, and then he encourages you to seek counseling. If you feel your are “married” to the farm, then you also have work to do to re-frame your thoughts, and actions to be able to cope with those who chose to throw muck and shame your way.
This is not easy to write, but as I age, I seem more compelled to speak about the trends I see on farms that are not helpful. It is my heart’s desire that every reader would enjoy a long, happy, and meaningful life on their farm, and in their family. Tell your family that you cherish them. Then do it.